text from a stranger...

hey stranger. 

i know you're somewhat a hopeless romantic. 

you don't have to pretend. i know everything about you. 

but you've kept that part of you stowed away in the deepest, darkest corner of your heart because a hopeless romantic is full of hope. and sometimes, hope and expectations hurt. you convinced yourself that hope is too expensive, and you simply can't afford it. you put all of yourself out there, hoping that the universe will listen to your prayers and grant you with someone who's finally worthy. but in reality, you really have no choice over the people you might encounter and events that might unfold. 

every time you start to view the world from your rose-tinted glasses, the universe has proven to you over and over again that being an optimist doesn't guarantee a good outcome. 

every time you get your hopes up, the greater the pain of succumbing to disappointment. 

you used to wear your heart on your sleeves, but experience has taught you that not everybody deserves your kindness. not everybody deserves your gentleness and tenderness. you've learned that the hard way. 

over the years, you've been cautious with your heart and whom you can entrust your heart to. 

you have learned to put up a brave front, oh yes you did. you never thought you could be so strong until the moment you decided you have to stand up for yourself because nobody else will. you have to put up different persona around different people. to protect yourself from people with malicious intentions. even though most of the time you don't have a single clue who those people are. so, you tread on thin ice so ever carefully. 

i know you're tired of disappointments and betrayals, i know you want people to love you for who you are and embrace you at your weakest. but when you almost let your guard down, just almost... all those horrible memories flashed back in an instant, leaving you drenched in tears, trembling in fear. the excruciating pain serves as a reminder not to fall for anyone easily, not to give yourself away too easily. "don't sell yourself short" - it's as if you can hear your best friends' voice ringing in your ears. 

you deserve a pat on your back girl, because after all these years, you've been vigilant and selective. you've always had your guard up because you know it's for the best. i know you are tired. i know you want to just take a snooze. but your heart won't allow you to. in the society, there is darkness that you have yet to fully decipher. 

yet you managed to stand on your ground and withheld your principals and good virtues. you're not one to give in to temptation easily. you're not one to stoop to anybody's level just so they can take advantage of you again. you're wiser now. you know your own worth. you won't make the same stupid mistakes again. 

you've tried to keep yourself as neutral as possible. you lay low because deep down you're weary, anxious and scared. you always attract the wrong kind of guys. the kind who feeds on your empathy and kindness, tossing them all around like it's worthless and taking you for granted. you don't want that to happen again, do you? your fragile heart forbids that because it cannot go through the same heartbreak again. you know you deserve more than that. 

at the end of the day you wonder, why has this hopeless romantic become so cynical about love and relationships?

so many shattered hopes. so much broken dreams. so much words left unspoken.  

the little devil starts to form shape in the back of your mind, and finally presented itself as part of you in flesh as a form of defense mechanism, to protect yourself from the all the harshness in the world. you forced yourself to be detached. every time you get hopeful, the cynical you in the back of your mind slaps you back to the hard and cold reality. you had hopes when it comes to people but where has that lead you to? heartbreaks. bad impulsive decisions. anger. frustration. oh, so much pent-up emotions. 

yet, you still have this tiny glimpse of hope you hold onto for dear life. 

you have always believed in the goodness in people despite all the setbacks. you have always remained optimistic no matter how bleak the prospects were. somehow, despite the the storm you have gone through, you have remained untainted. you are still the same wide-eyed girl since day one, but better. it's been a long self-discovery journey for you. 

after all these years of thinking you are the odd and weird one, you start to see the beauty in being a misfit, an oddball. your quirkiness, your curiosity, your spontaneity. all of a sudden, you are in peace with who you are. you realised that your love for yourself will never cease to exist. and those who see the beauty in you will love you for who you are at the core. 

you stop trying to fix things because there's genuinely nothing to be fixed. you stop finding faults in yourself because you realised that all along, you are just being authentic. you are being so unapologetically and unpredictably you that you are filled with so much poise, so much potential, so much possibilities that you couldn't see because you're so busy being yourself. 

when you cautiously open up to people as your heart trembles, you will know just how loved you are when they embrace you with the kind of love you thought ceased to exist. you will never have to second guess their motives or intentions because the universe finally heard your prayers. things are finally starting to look good for you, just when you least expect it to. 

patience, my dear. you deserve good things happening to you and good people coming into your life because you are golden. you are rare. you are everything too good to be true. someone who deserves that kind of goodness will come along. the kind of love you hoped for will be yours someday. all these years of not settling for anybody less than what you deserve will finally pay off. you will make him the luckiest man on the earth without a single doubt. 

the mark others leave are too often scars, but you carved a beautiful butterfly out of it and proudly branded it as your own piece of art. strength and resilience has become a part of you. nothing can be more beautiful than the growth and transformation that have turned you into who you are today.

you're a different person now. you've grown wiser. you're ready for change. nothing can stop you to reach your full potential. 

you are something rare, even if you have yet to recognize it. 

that rarity is what makes you so precious, late bloomer. 

and just like so many others before you.  

 in time, you will bloom too. 

love, stranger. 

it's a weird thing to write again.

i find myself awake at this hour, writing. 

1:00am... way past my bedtime. 

laying wide awake on my bed, 

entangled in my own thoughts. 

feeling everything all together at once.

the feelings consume me from inside out where there's no escape.

and so i turned on the little thing that emanates light from the screen, 

and i write. 

it's a weird thing to write again, 

considering anything i write was only good when i'm pouring my heart and feelings out. 

the last time it happened, it was exactly ten years ago when a boy i liked broke my heart. 

i feel this creative flow underneath my vein, overflowing, once again. 

is it bad that i'm starting to write again? 

it feels more like a curse than a gift... 

i have this premonition. 

pandemonium. 

rest. 

you need to rest. 

just fall into a deep slumber and everything will be alright. 

but the moonlight is beautiful tonight. 

and you feel intoxicated in it.

you know you want it. 

but you can't have it. 

that's why tears are trickling down your face. 

you wonder why you loved it with all your heart, and it doesn't love you back. 

it's okay darling, something so precious was not yours to lose anyway. 

the moon wouldn't even know you craved for it, to be in its light. 

the moon is just the moon, 

it shines on its own without needing validation or consent from anyone.

to the moon, you're just another silly, puzzled human underneath. 

trying to figure out the intricacies of human emotions and relationships. 

when you know you possibly can't anyway. 

so, what's the use of it? 

it's never good to overthink. 

time to get some sleep now. 

to be honest, i haven’t been great lately.

at the beginning of the lockdown, i handled the isolation quite well, mainly because i’m close to my family and i still talk to my close friends on a daily basis. i’m also a huge homebody so honestly staying at home doesn’t really bother me that much. 

but the longer we’re being isolated, i feel like everyday passes by in a state of blurred commotion. it’s like we’re just passing time in a limbo and wasting our youth away, burying ourselves in the endless labyrinth of labour... and more labour, succumbing to capitalism. 

some days I woke up feeling okay; while some other days I just felt shitty and sad and wanting to burst out in tears for no apparent reason. i'm experiencing emotions that i can't even fathom and it feels like a heavy cloud is growing within me, and the downpour can literally happen anytime. 

missing my friends when our special song comes up in my playlist, wishing that the circumstances would be different. allowing myself to indulge in the fantasy that in another life, i would probably be staying over at friend’s place at the weekend, or out at the bar enjoying lady’s night, engaging in frivolous gossips. or driving to my girls’ place in the middle of the night and have all those endless deep conversations where we would end up crying on our pillows because we were laughing too hard. 

if i could exchange that ordinary happiness with anything right now, i really would. even if it’s just for a fleeting moment. 

on the brighter side, i’ve definitely learned to be more reflective during the lockdown. since the lockdown started, it has definitely given me and i’m sure a lot of us an opportunity to think in introspect. i know this sounds crazy but even my personality switched from extrovert to introvert, which is totally fine by me because i like the company of introverts anyway.

the major takeaway would definitely be my take on relationships. it is so apparent but it really struck me like a lightning during the lockdown that we need to put in work in every relationship to make it work. effort and communication are definitely the key to maintaining healthy relationships, but only when the feeling is mutual and reciprocated. 

it’s definitely a challenge cause some of my friends are not huge internet people but the effort and thoughts really matter a lot in times of isolation. it is easy to neglect, cut off or even ghost people, but if it’s something worth fighting for, don’t stop trying. 

listen to them even on days when they’re hard to love. 

be there for them even on days when they’re hard to love. 

love them harder with your heart and soul even on days when they’re hard to love. 

when the world is cold towards them, hold them even closer to you and reassure the person that you’ll always be there as a friend, a lover, a family. it’s not an easy time for everyone, so let’s try to be kinder and more understanding towards one another, especially the ones you truly care and love.

also, find things that you enjoy doing because at the end of the day, happiness is what keeps us going. believe it or not, i used to hate doing sports, but i actually found joy in skipping and sweating it out! it makes me feel more healthy and feel good about my own body. someone wise once told me that it takes self-discipline to work out consistently, so that’s what i am going to do with this new-found hobby. 

besides, i've also recently got to know a new friend who is one of the kindest and amazing person ever. yes, i'm back on Tinder, don't judge me haha. but i've also deleted my account because connecting with new people and nurturing new relationships require undivided attention and energy, so i'm just going to focus on the one person that i feel that i can really establish a good and healthy relationship with. 

it's extremely refreshing to talk to my new friend, especially when we've been living in our cocoon for such a long period of time. he definitely showed me a whole new perspective in life and i feel like we can be really good friends. i've also picked up a new hobby - watching game livestreaming. honestly, i'm not a huge game person, but i started watching because of him and his livestreams with his friends are really funny and entertaining!

anyhow, things may seem stagnant for awhile now, but i hope my story makes you feel hopeful. things always work out in the strangest ways, in God's timing. know that there are still good people and new adventures waiting for you in near future. and when you meet those people and experience those adventures that seem so distant from you now, you will look back in disbelief how insignificant the shitty days are now. you will live the best version of your life and everything will finally make sense. 

as for me, i’m feeling better now, this update is just some pent-up emotions since... God knows when, so i needed to vent it out anyway. i find it so hard to put these feelings into words these days, mainly because my writing is rusty and i just can’t seem to find the right words. writing used to bring me so much joy and can’t deny i have been feeling uninspired for some time but sometimes unexpected moments as meeting a new friend or listening to a certain music can be an epiphany to rekindle that spark within just like that. 

better days are coming… that’s the only thought we should hold on to. sometimes i feel like a hypocrite trying to preach positivity, and honestly i don't believe in sunshine and butterflies all the time because life is about embracing all the different beautiful emotions, even the negative ones. they're what enriches our life and soul. but everything will get better eventually, this i can assure you. there may be a couple more shitty days until we get there but i hope you find comfort in my words and understand that hope and light will always prevail at the end, even in the darkest days. 

until then, keep yourself close to people who feels like sunshine even on rainy days, find simple joy in everything and try your best to stay sane. i hope you enjoyed this the concoction of emotions that has been brewing inside me for awhile now, might not be the sweetest but let’s cheers to life anyway xx

love, j.

A 21st Birthday Story [Part 2]

a wonderful box of surprise

A wonderful box of surprise from An Qi and Kah Kei: an assortment of overseas food/snacks from Japanese, Korean and Taiwan just because Kah Kei remembered me saying I wanted to do a “taste test” video on my channel. When she entered my room, she told me: “Hey! There’s a huge pile of rubbish in front of your room, go out and clear!” I was seriously shocked because I thought either An Qi or me did not clear out the rubbish. Turned out, they stored all the goodies in a storage box and put it outside my room! Sneaky girlssss. 

a girls' night out with three cheese

At the mo, I also came up with a brilliant plan of hanging out with the girls overnight without coming back to our hostel since I don't always stay back during the weekends. Although I don’t think our parents would be very happy when they find out about this, but it’s totally worth it for the memories. It was damn spontaneous for them to agree to my crazy plan too. Although An Qi was a little hesitant at first but she agreed in the end! We did makeup together and dressed up for a wild girls’ night out. 

It was already approximately 10:45pm by the time we ordered our Grab to fetch us to Gurney Plaza. The reason of us going to Gurney Plaza at this hour of time is of course to catch the latest Harry Potter spin-off series: Fantastic Beasts! It has become a tradition for me and the girls to watch Fantastic Beasts together, and we’re not going to skip this one despite my busy schedule. 

source: Google

At first, we couldn’t find the entrance to go to the cinema since the mall is already closed around 10:30pm. Then, we realized that there was another Malay couple who was finding the entrance as well, so we decided to tag along with them. Luckily by the time we found the lift and reached GSC cinemas, there were still tickets available at the counter. Another sweet surprise was the merchandise from Fantastic Beasts! So. Freaking. Awesome. 

After watching the movie, I kinda don't know how to rate it cause I feel like it doesn't have the Harry Potter authentic magical flavours in it anymore. Personally, I feel like it's a little too cute with the Chinese monster, too much comic relief and too little content and development of plot. I could see how some of you might love it. The main actor is cute tbh, but from the perspective of a die-hard Harry Potter fans, that just wouldn't do it for me :( Comment down below and let me know what you guys think!

after 2am

The movie ended around 1am. We lingered around for awhile before we decided to hop on a Grab to go to one of the hidden bars (which I have forgotten the name). Going to hidden bar has always been on my bucket list and I feel so lame because I saw that my juniors have already been to hidden bars while I still pretty much look and act like an underage. When we reached there, An Qi and I went to check out the venue while Kah Kei remained on the Grab car because the so-called hidden bar looked pretty suspicious. Once we opened the door on the side, the pungent smell of the cigarettes filled our nostrils instantly and we decided we need to come up with a spontaneous Plan B.

vanity time at G Hotel

The kind driver offered to take us to another area in town where he thought would still be active at this hour without charging us extra. We ended up going to @Pokok, which is a very famous bar among youngsters. Since we were newbies, we didn’t know how to order liquor. I order baileys because I had some of those when we were at Langkawi. It was a liquor that tasted like caffeine recommended by Zong Yao. An Qi went with some tequila; Kah Kei got whisky. 

After trying all the liquors, I came to a conclusion that baileys has the most decent taste, followed by whisky and the least unbearable one is definitely tequila, although Kah Kei feels that it's whisky that should be at the bottom of the list. We also came to an agreement that we should just stick to beer the next time. 

When the bar seems to be closing, we left and strolled along the streets in that area. We bought some satays by the roadside and scurried away from the maddening crowd. The satays tasted decent. Around 5am, I was in a devastated state where I feel like I have a hangover – I wanted to sleep but couldn’t fall asleep. We had some light morning breakfast at one of the mamak stall further down the street, where it is more tranquil and secluded. 

By the time the dawn was breaking, Kah Kei and An Qi called Grab and strangled me onto the car and off the car when we reached hostel. I honestly don’t know how some people can stay awake for the whole night, I guess it just simply doesn’t apply on old people like me. Really happy that I get to do this together with the cheese gang, would definitely do something like this again, just not anytime too soon xx need to nap first...

café hopping with Aina @themugshotcafe 

For months, Aina and I have been planning to go cafe hopping together and finally we did! We actually planned to buy a cake for ourselves to celebrate both of our birthdays (although our birthdays are quite far apart since she's a Virgo and I'm a Scorpio). When we reached Wheeler's cafe, which is the cafe Aina raved so much about, it was closed for renovation. So we walked to another cafe that was just a stone's throw away from our current location - The Mugshot Cafe.

This cafe is like the OG among the cafes in Penang. The shop was full of tourists and locals, especially ang moh. People loved their coffee and bagels! I would give this cafe a 4/5 because the menu is really affordable; the coffee and dessert tasted good, but the selection of food on the menu could be more varied. Spent some quality time there with my clique and definitely had a good in-depth conversation with her. Although we didn't really get a cake to celebrate our birthday together, it was still one of the best days I had recently, so I think she deserves a spot in my post-birthday appreciation post hahaha.

Went over to Stephanie’s house for a stay because Saira jio me to Butterworth Fringe Festival (BFF). Wanted to go to the flower place near Ikea as well, so I thought why not kill two birds with one stone? Her family was really hospitable and took good care of me (and my tummy) in those few days. On the first day, she surprised me with a birthday gift from Typo! I loveeeee Typo and just when I thought it couldn’t get any better, she got me a Harry Potter calender! Oh. My. Lord. She’s really The Bitch who knows me so well. 

Before I end my post, there's a bunch of people who are very dear to me whom I'd like to thank - my first batch of students! Some of them actually gave me birthday present wayyy in advanced before I left the school I was having my practical at. From the bottom of my heart, nothing beats a good old hand-written note and hand-made gifts that are customised! I've also received a handful of birthday messages from my students. Your kind thoughts and well wishes for me really made my birthday extra special this year. For everything that y'all has given me, thank you!

In a nutshell, my heartfelt gratitude goes to each and every one of you who made my 21st birthday extra special. Thanks for giving me so much memories and teaching me so many lessons in my 21 year of living in this world. 21st to me, is the age of maturity and becoming. I'm not perfect, but I'm learning to become a better person as each day goes by. At the stage where I am at now, I would describe it as full of conflicts (even within myself) and obstacles, but I'm happy. I'm happy that I have finally stepped out of my comfort zone to grow and learn, to reach my fullest potential and develop holistically. I've definitely changed, and am constantly changing, just like each of you who are reading my blog post now. 

Note to myself: Change is painful, resilient and determination. Throughout this process, you're bound to outgrow some of the people you love and it's okay. Just embrace the inevitable gracefully. You'll continue to be better and you'll be grateful to those who stayed. Until you've discovered your greater potential and reach enlightenment, I suggest you take the plunge and enjoy the roller coaster ride. Happy 21st!

Love, J.

A 21st Birthday Story [Part 1]

unexpected early gift from bestie

Sze Chyi and I had a meet up that day when she introduced to me a few analog retro camera apps on Apps Store. I find one of the retro camera apps really amusing - it's like a real retro film where you have to shake your phone to make the photo reveal itself faster. I belief it's "KD Pro Disposable Camera" on Apps Store. 

When we were having lunch at Sushi King, QB, she just gave me a really nice paper bag with a gift box in it! When the lid was removed, a pair of Quay Australia revealed itself while I stared back at it in disbelief. If I were to get myself a pair of sunnies, it would either be: Rayban, Gentle Monster or Quay Australia and I couldn’t believe she got one for me despite her busy uni schedule! Love you. 

"old boy"

 new hairstyle, old me

I have always wanted a drastic change for my hairstyle once I turned 21, so what better time than during my birthday month where I had 20% discount hahaha I convinced myself that rewarding myself with a top notch haircut service for all the hard work I've done wouldn't hurt. Turns out when I see my bank account, it still hurts *ouch*

Anyway, my initial plan was to curl my hair ala Korean style. Unfortunately, my hair stylist Hero told me that it would damage my hair furthur as I have already straightened my hair once. So, I took his advice and decided to grow my natural hair in order to curl my hair in the future. I'm still not giving up on my initial plan despite the obstacles. 

STEP 1: I decided to cut, proper dye my hair and do treatment. I cut my hair up till shoulder length because I hate long hair. First, it's hard to manage; second, the rate of hairfall isn't helping at all. So, we chopped off quite some bits. 

STEP 2: As for the colour, he recommended me to dye a sort of green-greyish colour that is quite dark so that it wouldn't be too obvious. For some reason, the colour isn't showing as much as I would like it to. Plus, it looks rather reddish than greenish, but I'm okay cause I love a redhead anyway. 

STEP 3: After dying my hair, I did the "healer" treatment (喜乐), with all the machines and technology imported from Korea. It's a treatment to kill the bacteria on our scalp and lock in the moisture and colour in our hair. And it took only 10 minutes to complete the treatment. And there you have it - a brand new Jia Qi, which doesn't look too different that much tbh :(

healer treatment: mushroom / hot air balloon head

boss & colleague surprised me

As most of you might know by now, I work for Christinna Kuan AKA @mskuan, together with another colleague named Pebbi. Chris told me that we were going out on this particular day to celebrate some social media success. We went to @Neway, Gurney Plaza -> @belleandcream -> @重庆火锅
 

their signature boba cheesecake (RM22) unpopular opinion: it's decent, but not worth the price at all :((

When we were at @重庆火锅, Chris and Pebbi kept going out of the little room but I never suspected anything because I was so excited and confused at the same time from hanging out with Chris. They made some excuses to leave the room once again, only to come back with the most gorgeous cake I have ever seen in my life! The person who was trying to light the fancy candle was so scared of the fire that might blast from the candle that she made us laughed in guffaws. 

At last, we managed to light the candle and had a few photos together as a team. #teamChristinnaK She also handed me a Tory Burch makeup bag where she got for me from the States. My heart is literally screaming: best boss ever! 

blessed & thankful

spread happiness to Scorpio babes & close friends

When I got back to my hostel, I tried to call my dad to see if it was convenient for him to stop by and take the cake home. Unfortunately, he couldn’t. So, I thought what better way to end this magical day by sharing the happiness and joy with a few of my close friends. 

After I put the cake safely in the hostel and accompanied Yong Fong to get some stuff at Tesco, I planned a small get-together and invited my friends to my room for an impromptu party night. I bought a bottle of sparking juice and a packet of colourful balloons just to create the “party” atmosphere. Since I had not cut the cake, I asked my fellow Scorpio friends: Nadine and Zi Yen to cut the cake together with me! It was a very sparkling night indeed. 

so tired cause i've been out for the whole day; happy to see that my pack is happy

nail painting & pressie in the morning

Early in the morning while I was still in a deep slumber, too lazy to care about the time, someone sneaked into my room. She started to paint my nails and the nail polish left my nails feeling so cool that I thought some water leaked. I was shocked when I opened my eyes - Jia Xin painting my finger nails with the biggest grin on her face. Gotcha! It was a transparent coat with glitters and I absolutely love! She also left me a present before I snuggled my way into the blankie and continued my beauty sleep.

intimate birthday luncheon with family

Rumours have it that I have decided to throw myself a birthday luncheon at @Suffolk House. Yes, indeed *yay* Suffolk House has always been my dream place me since I’m very much a British and heritage person internally. There’s just something very beautiful and atas about Suffolk House that never fails to fascinate me. I just really wanted to cross it off my bucket list, hence I opted for this restaurant. Plus, they had a lunch menu promotion that time hahaha so definitely worth it #cheapskate

Every year during my birthday, we would all get together and eat, but I have decided that this year, I wanted to treat my family members as a token of appreciation for their love and guidance for 21 freaking years! I wanted it to be an intimate luncheon where we could bond and talk with each other. Usually, I go for more economical venues but since this year is a treat for my family members, I figured I would just go full force. 

I have started doing a few part time jobs from the beginning of the year since I have been scheming for my 21st birthday for quite some time, so I knew that I needed that money. Though it can be tiring at times, the labour made me feel contented as I am able to be finacially independent and give back to the family that has nurtured me into the person who I am today. With a little bit of luck, I'm happy and humbled that I'm able to pay for my daily expenses and for all plans I have for my 21st birthday, including the luncheon. I'm still working on it and I certainly hope to provide more quality lifestyle to my family and more comfort as well in time to come. Let's work hard together for our future guys!

*Ahem* Anyway, after the very inspirational episode, here are the dishes and side dishes to satisfy all gourmet's tastebuds. I'm not sure where the photos of the main courses are, should I be able to find them in the future I will update in this post to document it. Enjoy.

Haircut & Colour : Hair Story International  

Makeup: Myself hahaha 

Earrings: Taobao 

Necklace: Memory Jewellery (won from Goody25 giveaway)

 Dress: Bardot, Zalora

Watch: Baby G

Handbag: Coach  

Heels: Charles & Keith (stole from mum)

I bought a @bardot dress that was cute and on-sale and a mauve dress for my mum as well to match. Unfortunately, she couldn’t wear it because the sleeves were too big! Bummer... It was also my first time wearing a stick-on bra (damn expensive!) and I’m glad that it didn’t feel uncomfortable at all. Love the mauvy, dusty rosy, rose goldy colour scheme going on with the assemble of my #OOTD. It just gives a very soft and dreamy vibe.

Mum got me a cake from @brixandbaume in Lychee flavor on the way to the restaurant. It was not only aesthetically pleasing and inexpensive, but it was really delicious, almost melts into your mouth the moment you try to savour it. Dad was the photographer of the day and I have to give him a pat on the shoulder because he did a great job! Love the quality time spent together with mah family that day.

it's mah birthday!

Work. Work. Work. A life of an undergraduate who is in need of money (typical millennial). Chris surprised again @The Hive after the photoshoot was completed; 

When I was back in the hostel, Yong Fong surprised me with three gifts! One of the gifts was handpicked by her brother whom I have never met together with herself hahaha Love all of them as I was really shocked she prepared not only one but three gifts! Lovee you girl, thank you so much; 

Heartfelt thanks to those who wished me “happy birthday” on the social medias as well. One of the most special one was definitely from my alien who screenshotted 11:11 on my phone and left me a length birthday message! At the end of the day, I received a birthday video from Sze Chyi that included a few of my cliques in it: An Qi (the most sia sui), Kah Kei (the most brief), Yee Hang (the most bitchface), Kar Yi (the one who made me cry on my 21st birthday, im an emotional wreck) and Sze Chyi herself! Since I was already told by Yee Hang beforehand, I wasn’t surprised at all, but I thought it was a really well-thought and lovely gift in digital form. Words mean so much to me! Thank youuuu guys. I could safely say that I had one of the best birthdays ever!

PS/ Stay tuned for [Part 2] I'll be posting this week. Hope y'all are having an amazing hols & those who are having finals, all the best!

Love, J.