梦一场

记得小时候，我们总是吵着问妈妈：“妈妈，我什么时候才能像你一样穿着高根鞋，穿着一身华丽服装，提着精美的包包出席宴会啊？” 又或者我们到底跟我们的童年玩伴说过多少次的：“哼，等有一天我们长大了，肯定要做我们父母现在不给我们做的事！我们要每天 SHOPPING，每天游山玩水，最好能和那些 AH MO LANG 一样到处背包旅行。哇，快等不及当大人啦！” 可是，天真的我们那时候对於成长所需要付出的代价看得太轻了。我们把成长的辛苦、心酸轻描淡写地带过，看到的只有成人世界美好，吸引人的那一面。诸不知，从不知天高地厚的小孩蜕变成一个有担当与责任的青少年 - 脚，必需踏着荆棘；手，必需紧抓着迈向前方的麻绳；心，必需任由被最爱，最信任的人一次又一次狠狠地往下刺，却还不可以倒下。

在成长的道路上，上帝赐予我们最美好的礼物莫过于青春。每个少年都在成长的一路上挥洒着青春，散发出少年的魄力，展现了他们前所未有的力量 - 对，一切都发生在恰恰那个花朵绽放的时刻：没有早一步，也没有晚一步。在备受伤害、考验的当儿，青春给了我们新的生命力，让我们在受过伤后，疲惫后，劳累后，还有旺盛的精力与顽固的意志卷土重来。青春之所以被铭记，青春之所以叫人难忘，青春之所以让我们在百年后想起时还会眼泪鼻涕一把，是因为一生中，每个人只有一次的不顾一切，义无反顾，大大咧咧，毫无保留。那正是滋养着青春绽放的养分，花开了，落了；我们经历了，也成长了。

当然在我们年少轻狂里出现的人往往都是最难忘的。关于我们辉煌的青春史，我们永记与心。关于我们美丽的遗憾，我们欣然接受。关于所有带给我们欢笑与泪水的匆匆过客也好、红颜知己也罢，我们会把每一段他们所给予我们的经历当做未来的最好的借鉴。再也没有那种很强烈的恨之入骨的感觉，再也没有那种撕心裂肺的呐喊，再也没有每个夜晚的抽泣，再也没有和不爽的人理论到一半时情绪失控哭出来的时候了。反过来看，青春倒是给我们的生命增添了不少的色彩。多少个一大清早，我们提早到学校只为了和朋友谈昨日看过的电影、明星。再来就是多少个夜色朦胧的夜晚，我们一起熬夜、一起聊天、一起拼功课到凌晨却一点都不觉得疲累。看，青春是一个多么五味参杂的一段人生的必经之路啊。

有很多在我青春里出现的人是我不愿提起的，因为有太多的回忆，太多的伤痛，太多的感触会在一时间涌上心头。那种甜蜜后的苦涩的感觉曾经让我在无数个夜晚里湿透了枕头。可是对于那些人，我感激万分。让我留下美好回忆的人，我更是致于万二分的谢意。谢谢你们成就了今天的我 - 刚强又不失优雅的花朵。

毕业快乐。

One of a kind April Fool

April Fool day is suppose to be a very strategic day for people to play prank on each others, especially for us teenagers. For four years spent in my high school, as far as I remember, there was not even a year that I could escape from being cheated or deceived by my friends even though those are very stupid pranks. This year, I have a very special April Fool story to tell. This time, it's a big joke, not just to me, but to US. Four debaters and our teacher in charge whom all got a shock of our lifetime. Here's how the big April Fool joke goes.

So, we got two letters from the PPD about the itinerary of the English Debate competition day. The first letter stated that the venue was Teluk Kumbar 2 and we need to arrive there by 8.00am. While the next letter that arrived much more later than the first stated that we need to go to Al-Mashoor by 9.00am. I believe that people who have brains would have followed the instructions in the second letter that we had received because it is up-to-date. So, we believed in our dear PPD and went to Al-Mashoor at 8.30am. 

When we reached there, there were no registration counters on the spot where they would usually put two pieces of table every year. We were so panicked but decided to stick onto positive thoughts. Maybe we were just late and we can still participate. Just give up the quarantine period then we would be able to make it into the preliminary rounds at least. We went to the staff room of Al-Mashoor and the teachers said that the English Debate was held at Teluk Kumbar 2, not there and their school's representatives had already departed to there 1 hour ago which is around 7:30am. 

Our heart were racing erratically and our brains were frizzy. Neither of us knew what to do and surely we do not know if we were gonna be disqualified or whuuttt. We rushed back to our school to get the 2nd letter that PPD sent us and dash to Teluk Kumbar 2 as fast as we could. It was my first time hearing Teacher Geraldine swear and it was my first time having a thought that "Hey.. Teacher Geraldine could be a sexy speed car driver in Fast & Furious!" .__. The road was winding so bad and the heavy downpour wasn't helping neither. When we reached Teluk Kumbar 2, we were all very angry with this whole April Fool activity that they had planned for us. Great. When the teacher asked us what school are we from, four of us (teacher was parking her car that time) shouted unbelievably harmonically and at the same time. We were like "SACRED HEART!" And he was like o_o.. "Wookeyy.. You don't need to be that loud.." 

Thanks to the God we were finally allowed to participate with only a fifteen minute quarantine time. And the place for quarantining us was a very noisy canteen full of students walking here and there distracting us. Great.. I suppose :/ And what's better? We got the government's side on the motion "This House Believes that Beauty is more important than the Brains". I thought that we were going to be doomed for sure. And our opposition is from Batu Maung high school. We don't even know how good or how bad they are, so everything's not in our control. If the odds is in our favour, then I think we can consider super duper lucky. But if it's not, then it shall be how it should be. 

When we were brought into a classroom after the quarantine time has ended, we saw our rival for the first time! They looked very smart in their coats and ties and to be frank I was so neeervousss that I thought I'd look like a bundle of nerves to everyone. But as it had reached my turn to speak, I felt.. I don't know how to describe that feeling. Happy? Or maybe confident? I really don't know but I just feel like "Oh I'm gonna stab you with my little dagger that you've looked down upon." And I just did it. The spontaneous rebuttal. First time for my whole life because it was my first time to be the third speaker. But it felt good doing it spontaneously rather than just reading out texts.

A funny rebut I made to a P.O.I. :

Third speaker of opposition: A brainy person can contribute to the society while person with beauty can't. 

Me: Who says that? Mother Teresa has gained respect by helping the poor and she even won the Noble Prize in 1979!

Third speaker of opposition: A brainy person is more important to the society than beauty. Beauty can do nothing but a person with brains can invent new things.

Me: Yes indeed but if their intelligence is misused, brainy people are also often the ones who committed crimes because they misuse their brains. Do you see Mother Teresa go around the street killing people? No! Because she has inner beauty. 

And in the end, the motion was accepted. Yatta! :D But we've still got two topics to prepare on and we are short of time. All we have is tomorrow to write the scripts and practice it. And Thursday, we're up in the limelight again. 

On this Thursday, I'm gonna make those people who made our April Fool so wonderful pay! :P

My 2014 1st semester school break summary

The thing is that, I've promised my mum I would study hard during the holidays because my result for the 1st term exam had sucked so bad. But I couldn't. 

Basically, my whole holiday can pretty much be summed up into a few words - Selfies, Chinese orchestra & English debate. First let's just skip the selfies part because there's nothing much to elaborate on because I take selfies anytime anywhere. And that doesn't count out this holiday. 

Chinese Orchestra:

So, let's move on to Chinese orchestra. Our daily practice hour is from 8am to 6pm. I know what is a club like Chinese orchestra needs. It needs ultimate commitment for us to see the improvement of skills in ourselves and our juniors. It needs sacrifices. Sacrifices like you need to skip tuition classes, you need to give up doing what you like, you need to surrender your idle life, you need to shed off your human skin and be a walking dead. I know I might be exaggerating but isn't this the truth? For how many tireless day and sleepless night that all the members of Chinese orchestra club has gone through for such a long period. It is in fact a grave test for us to know where our limits can stretch to the beyond or further beyond the beyond. Chinese orchestra club tests our patience, our endurance to critics, our time arrangement, our perseverance and how strong can we stand up on ourselves to withstand pressures from parents, teachers and studies. So, we had been practicing day and night until final.. the RED LETTER DAY had arrived! :D

On Thursday, we went to Dewan Sri Pinang for the annual Chinese orchestra competition called《春蕾》. The song that we've competed is entitled 《美丽的凤尾竹》. We aimed for a gold medal for this song but unfortunately, we are only capable of achieving the silver medal. Our teacher told us that the highest recognition for this song is only up to silver medal. So I think we're not that bad after all. Silver medal is something we worked hard for, it didn't just fall from the sky out of nothing. That's why we deserve it and deep in my heart, I think we deserve a gold medal if some individual technical problems did not occur that day.

Selfies with an alien, a banana & a normal human:

Bought a packer of prawn crackers for RM2!

What is our favourite hand sign for all the times? *P.E.A.C.E.*Whoop!!

一群小屁孩

But the most important thing is still the learning process and enhancement of skills. How Chinese orchestra club differs us from others is that, we know the true meaning of perseverance while others don't. That's what I think I've learnt of Chinese orchestra club in the past five years. I don't even remember for how many times that I've thought of just leaving everything behind and give a letter to the teacher in charge saying that I've had enough of Chinese orchestra practices and all I wanna do now is walk away from all this shit. But I couldn't, because I love Chinese orchestra as much as I love Xiao Wang and all those juniors. Sometimes, love is not all. It's the responsibility placed on you and that angelic feeling that you have a holy task to complete. Yeap, that's it.

 

English debate discussion:

On Friday, after our Chinese orchestra competition ended the night before, we started our preparation for the upcoming English debate competition. I woke up unrelentingly, letting the breeze to caress upon my skin when I sprung up from my bed for morning ablutions like a zombie. It has been a tiring week for me and I was suppose to enjoy a bit of my Friday but NO! I have to prepare debate stuff like debating scripts, rebuttal points, statistics, evidence and blah blah blah. Preparing scripts is such a pain for me as I prefer spontaneously deliver my speech but it's good to do research before I decided to do something really stupid like embarrassing myself on front of the debaters and audiences. I really enjoy debating on the stage because I don't really hurt people with words in real life but when I P.O.I. in the debate competition, that feeling was fantastic xD Don't look at me now, as the saying goes - "There's the most devilish thought in the most angelic mind." See, I have an angelic mind here .__. 

Trying very hard not to peek at my Facebook messages and notifications when typing scripts

 

Look at what we did out of boredom:

Oppa KungFu Style .__. What da hell is this...

We're sistas forevahhh!

"WHOOTTTT?" o_o

Wrap Up:

I know I've been acting like a bitch pretty much lately and I'm not hoping that you guys can comfort me or anything. Just that if I say anything rude to you or I talk to you with an unfriendly tone, know that there's a monster inside me who has invaded my body and soul for the time being and I've no weapon against the giant monster. Pleaseee put up with me and pleaseee don't be mad at me! I'll apologise for sure if I'm the one who did something wrong. Promise. And you guys need to promise me too!

*Pinky fingers crossed together*

A milestone in my life

Last year when I thought I was really gonna leave British Council, I was very upset and the gloom had given me inspiration to write a post in my blog about you guys. This year, I must say that I'm very thankful to have one more term spent with you guys and I'm gonna write another post about my BC days with a different emotion from last year. This year was a really difficult year for me. I've confronted with a lot of problems and most of them weren't that easy to solve at all! When I'm in the turmoil, my families and friends are always ready to offer help to me and their kindness have made me realise that there's utterly no use at all to live in griefness and sometimes, you just gotta live through things that upset you. Just like this case :')

Okay.. Last year Kyle said that he thought that I was a boy when he 1st saw me at BC. Ever wondered how I look when I was in form 3? TADAA!

 

Differences of last year & this year:

LAST YEAR

• Our class were smaller - it consisted of only 9 students o-o
• Ian was our teacher
• Our teacher was more flexible and playable than this year's 
• It was fun
• I got to see the sunny and fun side of you guys and shed from my shy skin as well
• Selfies & group photos overflowing x.x
• Songs and Ryan Higa during break time!  

 THIS YEAR

• This year our class expanded twice its size (roughly)
• Deirdre (or better known as DD) is our teacher
• Our teacher is so conservative and so old school!
• Sometimes DD is just being too unreasonably eccentric that she upsets us
• I got to know a few new friends like Sakinah, Jesselyn and Hui Zhen (QueenZhen)
• More selfies & group photos
• It's all about Francis @@ (no more Khalid?)

A few confessions to make: 

To Ginger: Ginger, I think that you're very pretty from the 1st time I see you when you were sitting on another table with another pretty girl (forgot her name) at the beginning of the year. After getting closer to you, I find that you're very much like me and for most of the time we would feel "awkward" pretty easily. I don't know how you define the word "awkward", but to me some of your expression just shows awkwardness in some situations. And it is very lucky for me to find someone who is equally enthusiastic with me in taking photos. I think that taking photos besides selfies are very important because photos freeze that moment and measure our growth. And thanks for your sourvenirs - the bookmark from China & the biscuit from Japan!

To JaNe: I know you love me & you're definitely one of my most intimate friends. You know me & I know you. But sometimes, you give me a mixed feeling of hating me and loving me because you always pinch and hit me so hard, always "abuse" my books and always say "diamlah". Maybe it's because you understand me. You understand that I'm mature enough to not to be upset with your childish actSSSS. It's like you can read my mind literally. Just like last year during the last term, you said you have a kind of "wheezy feeling" that I'm gonna return for a term next year. True enough, I did.

To Wendy: You're a very sweet girl and you're the opposite of JaNe. I like it when you tie your hair up in a ponytail but I love it when you just put your hair down on your shoulders. It makes you look elegant and the-opposite-of-JaNe even more :P You smile, laugh and blush easily (so cute!) Haha.. And it's hard to find someone who gets pai seh so easily. Everytime JaNe or me look at you and say "Wendayyy.. Wendaayyy.." you'll be like "Whut?o_o" Stay cute! PSS.. And sexy ;) It's my pleasure to hug you with your sexy back haha xD

To Kyle: Hmmm... Where to start our tale on? AFS would be appropriate enough I guess ;) Still remember when I was in form 3 and there was a question for me that asked "What is your proudest achievement so far?" And I said "My proudest achievement so far is getting the KIZUNA scholarship and go to Japan for free." I think we started to have conversations since I answered that question. Last year, you went to Germany on paid programmes so we had more to share with each other. Although most of the time we're on the same side, but we've also quarreled for most of the times over small matter. And would you please stop creating gossips for me? 1st, Jayesh. Then, Khalid. And now, Francis. And who's the next person? Ze Fei? xD Your 1st impression to me was very good though. I like boys who wears cap and look kindda SWAG. But after getting to know you, I just wish you could "DIAMLAH". Haahaha..

To Ze Fei: Two years ago, your body size were kind of okay. And for the 1st time I looked at you, I think that you have that kind of charisma like you-know-who. I gotta admit that you're quite good looking. You have very nice penmanship, you've got good command of English language & you crack jokes at the right times. A very impressive boy. Kyle told me that you're that kind of brainy guy who doesn't even need to read books to get good results in your exams. He also told me that you can play piano very well and you're at diploma already or something. Tell you something, your body size now is consider very fit already and you should stop increasing (or what other terms you call it) your muscle cause it's perfect already. There's nothing beyond perfection except destruction. So heed my advice. And that hug, it was very warm and "buffy". You've also been a very good adviser and listener. Thanks. I hope your sleeping routine will get normal someday...

To U'Wais: You are very talented and you're not like who I would imagine you to be. 1st, you play guitar! I am totally insane with guys who can play guitar cause they're just so cool and awesome and romantic (my imaginations) and everything. Plus, guitar is my top one favourite musical instrument! HAH! 2nd, you have the talent of speaking in the public/in front of the camera (Han Chiang competition last year). And you've yearned the 1st place for yourself! ACE YO! 3rd, you're very outspoken and sometimes being monkey-ish and loud. But I love you being yourself and just keep up the good work!

To Shrimp: Haha.. That was an awkward hug for you eh? Hope you didn't get nightmares o_o Umm.. Just be careful around DD cause she has been giving you very much of attention really. And umm.. Grow some meat :) 

To Hui Zhen: "QueenZhen?" That's what DD would say every week when she takes the register. I guess I wouldn't be hearing it anymore huh Queen? xD You're very pretty actually and you remind me of the old me. I don't take selfies last time and I certainly have the ugly profile pic the whole world. What made me took my 1st selfie? I'm not gonna answer that but that answer is in the caption of my 1st selfie in my mobile uploads. Stalk me if you wanna know. Haha.. You have a very fair complexion (ENVY!) and I love it when you scold JaNe "diamlah". Revenge is indeed sweet. LOL. 

Photos on my last day:

Candid photos 

Owwwhhh.. Bromance .__. Steam Ginger looks steam here!

Muscleman having a minor problem with his hair (.__.)ll

I'm stretching my hands so bad *height prob*

 

Wendy closed her eyes! -_-

The chosen one

Yatta! :D Are you guys happy with this?

Time to part

Epic facial expression o_o

Ze Fei is lecturing me with his finger pointing sharply at me .__.

Not Kyle too :/ Hah. Granny Kyle :P

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'll miss you guys!!! :')

Wrap up:

For each and every lesson, we see each other grow. We learnt to see flaws and at the same time the beautiful sides of each other. I don't know if DD has ruined our happiness or whatever but I know that British Council promises us one thing, which is that the seed of friendship that we had sowed unintentionally at first will grow into something remarkable and fruitful. Actually, it's kind of hard for me to deny Ze Fei's statement. We are crazy. We are weird. And I think that's our identity and that's what we'll carry in ourselves in the future. Although my British Council journey has come to its end, I'm glad that I've met a bunch of crazy and psycho friends there. To me, British Council is more than just a tuition center and where I learn English. It's more like a platform for us to understand each other despite our differences and show ourselves to the each other who we really are. 

It me:

Straightened my hair before departing to Japan. Jia Qi with Fringe. (2012 December . 2013)

Just took my graduation photo three weeks ago. This is who I am. Dumb dumb Jessica Qi Qi :目

I'll miss all the little things like how JaNe would draw cute pictures of "sai" all over my book and say "diamlah" every time I voice out my opinion, how shock I was the 1st time when I saw Ze Fei became so buff (.__.), how Ginger and I would enthusiastically take selfies and group photos every week, how U'Wais and I were so happy when we found out that we had a mutual friend - Khalid two years ago, how Wendy and I laughed over and over again when Jason said something about "Mighty Brains" and didn't finish his sentence, how awkward Shirmp looked when I hugged him today, how Hui Zhen smile at me every time our eyes meet (so cute :P) and how I always debated with Kyle and quarrel over small matters. But I'm glad that I've seen you guys morph into somebody from a nobody to me. Thanks for making my Saturday so awesome. No matter what, I hope I will always be in your heart and please, just please DO KEEP IN TOUCH! BC gang forever! :')